Why should I be Sorry
Sorry for who I am
Sorry for everything my life has made me
Why?
I did not ask for this
Do you think
In my right mind
I wake up
And tell myself
Today, I want to suffer
I want to have extreme moods
Every 60 seconds
I want anger, that is unfounded
I want to be afraid
Of people leaving
Of things that don’t make sense
That I woke up
As a child
As a teen, in love for the first time
As a 28 year old, meeting someone new
And wanted them to rip away my dignity
Rip away every piece of me
Leave me with nothing but vile memories
And pieces of me, shattered
I did not
Wake up
And ask for any of it
I did not
Ask for this
But
Hear me
When I tell you
This is my truth
This is who I am
Not all of me
Because there is
So much more
Love
Beauty
Understanding
Caring
A world in this soul
You could not even begin to fathom
Because of what I did not ask for
So no,
I did not ask for this
But
This is part of me, now
This is me, B.
Take me or leave me.
I’m done hiding…
-B.
10-17-17
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